“Please Don’t Write About This”
I just got done reading this, from Ana Fernatt, a reader at our first Solo Show back in February, about her very recent break-up. That night was the first time I met her, and I clearly remember her elation at embarking on a new relationship. Which of course, was ironic that she was participating in a show about being single. Without a doubt, though, she had plenty of past experiences to read about and entertained as we knew she would.
There are two things that keep me from being completely honest or rather, revealing, when it comes to this blog: trying to respect the people I become involved with and the fact that some people (read: my parents) are following. In relation to the latter, I can’t be as explicit or forthcoming as I could be were this anonymous.
I really appreciate that Melinda frames this as a challenge, rather than a hindrance. But sometimes I see the difficulty as a roadblock, stopping me from saying what I really want and preventing me from a true creative outlet.
While I have no desire to throw anyone under a bus or talk about all of the not so savory things I’ve gotten myself into, there is a lot of editing of my thoughts that goes on before I write a post. I debate with myself about what to say or not to say, while also trying to get you, my readers, to relate to me.
How can I accomplish this when there are constantly other people to consider?
There are things going on right now that I’d like to write about, that in some ways, I feel like I need to write about, as therapy or release or whatever. But I don’t.
I know there are always two sides to every story. Being a writer of a blog is not only a journal of some sorts, but also a one sided perspective of interactions with others. Facts may be facts, but without proper context, can be misconstrued.
People may know I’m referencing them specifically when I speak in generalities, but I hope they understand what this is all about.
And really, at the end of the day, this IS me and mine and I’ll do whatever I please with it short of libel and public humiliation.
-Carly
