bliss and emptiness
“OFFERINGS” my latest exhibit and showing of new works…this is a view within a view inside the warehouse space where all the sculptures too big to reside within the gallery space are placed. the attendance was the lowest of any show and yet in my mind it was my strongest show of works!! cracks me up…although my fair city does not hold or value a plethora of conceptual and contemporary works it boggles my mind how any “artist” does not succumb to doubt and depression over time. i struggle with marketing, i know that is my weakest link and my space is not in the “desired” area of the city where people like to go or are too lazy to make a go out and investigate….and yet i plug along, because i don’t know how else to communicate or express myself to benefit myself and others. intellectually i know i can do other things directly to impact my world but my passions of communicating are in creating through a medium that does not seem to interest people…yes, this is from my own mind and yes it’s my karma, so i keep applying effort and i keep creating the causes for a future.
doubt and funk have entered my mind as of late and i know what i need to do however right now it feels necessary to just feel this…it is not an attachment i will hold onto for long, the grasping will release over time only to begin again when another condition arises…my world, my mental attitude, my works are impermanent…and yet my humaness (is that a word?) tires me…relax Hazel, i say to myself , hit the refresh button and begin again.
2 Responses to “bliss and emptiness”
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Diana Says:
December 10th, 2010 at 2:17 amSo sorry to read that you are in a funk! From what I see your show looks great. Wish I had been there and sorry I wasn’t. Winter blues too, maybe?
Much love, Diana -
hazel Says:
December 10th, 2010 at 6:41 amDiana…thanks for your time, support and love! it’s ALL good i know my works are strong, just feeling tired and ready to relax into the holidays….you know me…i’ll never give up! just not the right time!
xo -h.
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