Hell yeah health!

In order to keep motivated, I need to keep reminding myself what it is that’s going to happen in the near future that will make me happy. If I have something to look forward to, then it makes the not so great things worthwhile.

• I’m excited for Monday. I’m going to see my awesome/amazing/groovy friend Marci and we’re going to do a photography shoot type thing together for a banner for this blog. Plus she’s great with editing so hopefully she can help me with that too. :3
• I’m excited for Tuesday because it’s Valentine’s Day and my boyfriend and I are going to snuggle and bake together. (Aka, I’m putting him in many delicious treats.)
• I’m excited for Sunday because it’s my university applicant day, so I get to go back to Sheffield and re-visit my future home of the next 3 years. Yay!

And I’m not so excited because I have a long day of art coursework tomorrow. But in order to play hard on Monday, I must work hard tomorrow. Let’s do this. GO TEAM.

Wagamama’s!

The raw juice was amazing, and obviously made fresh on site because it was frothy and separated like it does when you make juice at home. It was sweet and light, I could feel it doing me good!

The “yasai chilli men” was really tasty, but smothered in chilli infused olive oil so was pretty greasy, however my diet isn’t high in fat anyway and the oil made my lips soft. :) I didn’t feel like there was enough vegetables, but that’s probably just me, because I pile my plate high with veggies whenever they’re on hand. Still, there was lots of flavour and it was more than enough to keep me full. Everyone else really enjoyed their meals and all want to come again. Which is definitely a plus, there’s so many veggie options!

A refreshing, delicious way to start the day. It was so sunny this morning, you can even see the light hitting the top of the smoothie! Of course I mistook the sun for warmth and went to take pictures outside. Nope, it’s still -4. Kitchen pictures it is.

Green monster smoothie, made with spinach, banana, unsweetened soya milk, water, peanut butter, agave and ground flax. Topped with wholewheat cereal, pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds and goji berries. :D

I’m soso excited for tomorrow. A lot more excited than I should be, really. But we’re going to Wagamama’s and I can’t wait!

Plus there’s a vegetarian/organic shop right by it that I’ve yet to investigate, and I really hope they have tahini, because I’m dying to make this protein bowl and these burgers.

Food and cooking makes me so happy. Why did I ever restrict myself of that? It seems so silly now. I haven’t had ED thoughts in months, and I’m even growing to like my body, which is nice. I feel so much better about myself than I did this time last year, and yet, I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. I may be the heaviest, but I’m also the healthiest, physically and mentally.

My parents said that I was obsessed with food. That’s a little true, and they see it as if its a negative thing, but I don’t think so. It’s good to be so focused on something that makes me happy, keeps me busy. Because they care so little about health and I’m at the other end of the spectrum, I see how it can appear that way, but if I eat something unhealthy, it doesn’t bother me. I enjoy food, end of.

Look what I’m having tomorrow at Wagamama’s:

raw juice
carrot, cucumber, tomato,
orange and apple

yasai chilli men
stir-fried tofu, courgettes, red onions, peppers,
mushrooms and mangetout in a spicy tomato chilli
men sauce, served on whole wheat noodles

HOW GOOD DOES THAT SOUND?! unf. Okay, I hope you all had a wonderful day, I’ll stop rambling, good night!

A new rice cake combination that blew my tastebuds away.

Chilli spiced rice cake, topped with red pepper hummus, red pepper, pine nuts and paprika.

Braeburn apple slices and peanut butter, a match made in heaven.

Creamy Carrot and Lentil Soup. (Vegan, of course!)

I wanted something with lots of fibre and lots of protein, so this seemed like the perfect recipe. With 21g of protein and 35% of your dietary fibre, you can’t go wrong! Especially with freshly ground black pepper and pumpkin seeds. Yum.

Delicious, filling, hearty. Recipe can be found here!

And today I figured out why my cramps were 10x worse than normal. Premature food poisoning cramps mixed with shark week cramps. -_-

Anyway, we ran out of oats this morning (the horror) so I used my brother’s packet oatmeal mixes. They’re cocoa flavoured, and not as high in sugar and as processed as I first thought, so I had two packets, made with 3/4 soya milk and 1/4 water, then topped with half a banana, pumpkin seeds and sunflower seeds. :D

I’ve had a bad half term - I know I have. Ever since school started again after Christmas, my social anxiety has consumed me, and I’ve rarely been at school. The only other time I’ve left the house is for the Panic! gig.

Next week is the half term holidays, and for me, that’s the cut off point. If I don’t use that week to catch up on all the work, actually get out of the house and just enjoy myself then I’m going to have very few fond memories of college. I want to leave on a high note. I am going to leave on a high note. That’s decided.

There are many things that make me happy, but I do hardly any of them. When you think about it, that makes no sense. I know I can make myself happy, and yet I’m choosing not to?

So I’m setting myself a new set of targets. Nothing drastic, definitely nothing unachievable, merely simple things that make me smile.

• Exercise more. Pure and simple. I feel so, so great after a long run and it helps my insomnia a great deal.
• Bake more. Cakes are not my enemy. It’s alright to treat myself, I need to stop viewing it in such a negative light.
• Start Zumba. Even if I don’t enjoy it, that’s okay. I need to go along to new things without worrying so much what other people think of me.
• Do work as I get it. Sure, I’ll hate doing it now, but the feeling of satisfaction once it’s all done is far better than the stress of leaving it all until the last minute.
• Do things outside of school! My school work isn’t going to suffer because I spent one Saturday going to the movies.
• Commit to veganism. Stock up on vegan chocolate - that’s my only weakness. Other than that, the rest of my diet is fine.

It’s all in my reach.