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I want to say there has been a lot going on the past few months. I want to tell you that I’ve been working towards my many different goals in life. I wish I could say that I have changed my lazy ways and didn’t have just a bunch of excuses to explain my lack of motivation towards life. I’ll spare you though. There hasn’t been anything worth telling about. Maybe minor things here and there but nothing I can remember. Of course my memory isn’t the most reliable. Every so often I feel I put myself in the box of non-living. Like I purposely lock myself away and become this f*cking zombie going through my day the same way I did the day before. Nothing ever changes. I’m not trying to be emo – I swear I’m not trying to. It seems I get like this ‘I hate life’ mood every time my birthday comes around. I feel like I’m getting old. It’s so stupid, I know I’m not old (turning 24) but the not getting anything accomplished yet is depressing. This might not sound the great… but I have always felt I was meant for more than the average person. I can’t explain it. I mean I have felt this way for as long as I can remember but never have been able to find that thing I’ll be good at. Partially because I never try. I always say I’m trying but in reality I’m more like giving it a half-ass attempt. People say knowing the problem is the first step to fixing it. In my case though, knowing the problem just makes me prolong applying the solution.

*cough*

No, I’m actually not ‘sick’ as in like the flu or anything like that. Over the weekend I hurt myself around my breasts and now have a lump. It hurts like a bruise without there actually being a bruise on the outside. Maybe it’s a muscle pain thing. I don’t know. But if after a week it doesn’t go away then I might consider going to the doctor. I’ve been seeing way too many doctors lately and it’s becoming a pain. On Friday I have my monthly check up with my blood specialist and I haven’t been taking my iron pills the way I should so I know my levels are gonna be low this month.

…in other news -

IT’S MARCH!

March happens to be a very important month for many reasons. First of all, this month marks 1 year and 7 months with Adam which means… I’m his longest relationship! It is very exciting for me. He has so much more experience in life (he’s six years older than me) and so to hit a milestone together is very amazing. And speaking of Adam… his birthday is this friday the 4th. I super pumped for him as it is the big 3 – 0. I don’t think he realizes just how important this birthday is to a person. For the most part I think he feels old with this number even though he doesn’t look a day over 20. But finally the biggest thing for me this month would be the awesomeness that is having a week’s vacation. No holidays this month and with no sick days left, I’m thrilled to have this glorious week away from work!

This is really going to be the year where I try and bring my websites back to their peak from years ago. It’s not going to be easy but it should be fun! For starters, I’m going to be updating a lot more. I really honestly have to push myself to do it because otherwise I keep telling myself ‘I’ll do it later, when I have something better to say’ lol. It’s not a pleasant thing to be completely absent of interesting things to blog about. But what I’ve come to realize is that I do have things to say, I just don’t always realize it!

So last night Adam and me had our first at home (cooked by us) dinner since we’ve started dating. Is that weird? I think it might be. His parents have always been bugging us to buy food and make it ourselves, since it would ‘save money’. I think we decided on Tacos because he refused to take me to Taco Bell after the whole 38% meat deal. I have to say I had a lot more fun than I thought I would doing it. Although we made way too much food for just the two of us lol.

It looks good, doesn’t it! I also tried for the first time Wholly Guacamole dip and wow it is amazing! It was so funny too because prior to us cooking dinner, I was talking to Adam’s mom about Guacamole sauce and which ones were good. She mentioned the Wholly Guacamole being an excellent and I was disappointed that I didn’t bother seeking it out (it has slices of avocado in it!). Well later on when we started making the food I realize I did in fact get that exact brand, lol. It went great with the tacos and with the nachos so I’m definitely going to buy it more often.